Road Block!

While I’m extremely stoked to have lost 40 lbs since February and ~20 of those since the last post in April, I’m finding my forward thrust lacking now. I need to refocus somehow and energize myself to do more and not slip back to my old shitty ways.

There’s been a lot going on lately, work has been kind of ass and it’s mostly due to me being super lazy and unmotivated here.. i wish i could find my stride at work. Everyday i feel like i just go in, grind it out and leave, and lately i don’t even grind it out. I just go in, find myself waiting for the day to end so i can do something else with my time. A very bad place to be.

On the upside, I’ve made some huge positive strides in my life for self discovery. Expanding my horizons and taking leaps here and there is pretty exciting, but for some reason i’m not satisified. Something doesn’t feel right, it never does :/

I look better, I feel better but something isn’t sitting well with me. I just feel like I’m going through the motions and I’m not 100% invested. I’m hoping this is just a phase and that I’m still adjusting to my new take on life. I’ll take the compliments and the rewards as they come i suppose and hope that any fiery damage i leave behind will not be irreparable. I’m hoping in the worst case that it’s at least salvageable with time.

Oh Disaster, how I secretly love thee.

Don’t get me wrong, as usual I’m confusing and vague as hell on here.. but I am having a blast. As proof to you, Blog, here is a picture that marks the 3rd Day (a friday) of a 6 day long bender that just kind of happened.. Glad I’m 27 and my liver has not told me to fuck off yet.

In the drunken zone with Kayla, Ray, Jack and Guillermo Mash

That’s right, drunk me is now an official alter-ego in preparation for Cannon Beach this summer. Carlos Banger, Guillermo Mash, Enrique Shepherd and Alejandro Pie are going to tear shit down.. respectfully of course.

Does anybody else get it?